Disappointment

It really hurts when you find out you are a disappointment to someone.  Especially family.

I have been a disappointment to my mother-in-law for over 27 years.  I have known this for years.  She did not want me to marry her son.  I have never been able to live up to her standards.  I have not played her games well.

I am now a disappointment to other family members....my own.  My dad, my brother.  Probably everyone. This hurts more than being a disappointment to my mother-in-law.

I am outspoken.  I am snarky.  I am....sad.  Sucks to be me.  But I put myself out there.  What did I expect?