It is such a punch in the gut when you find out that what you thought was real is not real. When you thought that someone was one way, but then you find out it is all a lie. This has happened to me more than I care to really admit. What is it about me that makes it so easy to lie to me? How stoopid am I? Or do I know they are lying, but I want to give them the benefit of the doubt, but it still feels like a punch when I truly find out how crap shitty someone is.
Sucks to be me.
And that is okay. I guess.